New Layout at SH
May 14th, 2005New Layout at SH.
Just one more test.
Need sleep.
Charles comes on Teusday!
Need to work on THIS layout.
Trying to make it look like SH.
PHP kicking MY ARSE.
Fuck it.
:p
I’m DONE
May 5th, 2005Okay… I’m very, very, VERY ticked off.
So, my Algebra teacher tells me that she lost a test. Fine, no biggie. Could care less. I’ll retake it.
But, the trick was I had to use my ONE AND ONLY MAKE UP to take that test. SHE FUCKING LOST IT, AND I HAVE TO YOU MY MAKE UP TO MAKE UP A TEST THAT SHE LOST?!
Okay, I get over it. Pissed as hell, but, I get over it.
She find the test before I can go and retake it. Yay! I have a 53 I want to get rid of and knock out. Only, it’s too late to make up a test.
WHAT?! You told us at the beginning of the semester that we could make up our lowest score. HOW ARE WE GOING TO KNOW WHAT OUR LOWEST SCORE IS UNTIL THE END OF THE SEMESTER?! It makes ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE.
Because of that 53, I am hanging by a THREAD close to passing this class. I WANT IT GONE! I have a 92 that boosted my grade up good, but that 53 has GOT TO GO.
Now everything rests on the test I had tonight, and the final next week.
FUCK MATH.
I just won’t finish college and start working on music full time. FUCK IT. If I have to repeat this course over again because I got ROYALLY SCREWED OVER due to WORK, OTHER CLASSES, and DUMBASS TEACHERS, I AM QUITTING SCHOOL AND SAYING FUCK IT. I AM SICK AND TIRED OF WORKING MY ASS OFF AND DOING EVERYTHING I CAN TO UNDERSTAND WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON TO HAVE EVERYTHING RIPPED OUT FROM UNDERNEATH ME. FUCK IT. I’M DONE.
Yeah, I know, I didn’t do the homework like I should have. BUT FUCKING A. You work hard to get money to pay for your car. Your boss, who fully knows your school schedule, has you come in early on the weekends (AKA< OPEN THE FUCKING STORE), and then come in early during the week. I get home from school, and I’m too fucking tired to stare at Quadratic Equations and Complex Numbers. Exscuse me for wanting to sleep.
If work fucks me over, I’m done. If school fucks me over, I’M DONE. I can’t take this shit anymore. I’ve worked too hard for everything I have, and if it’s yanked away from me again, I’M DONE. IT’S FUCKING OVER.
Yeah, I feel bad for making my parents pay all that money just to have me fail and drop out of college. Yeah, I really do, BUT THIS IS PISSING ME OFF. THIS IS MY FOURTH MATH CLASS AND IF I DON’T GET IT BY NOW, I NEVER WILL.
I never understood the concept of needing to know the Quadratic Formula to teach English to a bunch of High School kids. Let alone ELEMENTARY SCHOOL KIDS. I never understood that basic need. Where the FUCK am I going to use it at?! SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME AND THEN MAYBE I WON’T GIVE UP!
What the FUCK does needing to know the max or min of a fucking parabola have to do with trying to get kids to appreciate Shakespeare? THE PEOPLE THAT SHAKESPEARE WROTE FOR DIDN’T KNOW HOW TO WRITE!!!!!!!!!!
I swear, college curriculum doesn’t flow with most jobs that people want, especially in the teaching field. Yes, sometimes teacher grade on a cruve. It’s nice to know how to do that. But once you get your certificate, do you really need to know what x = -b + or - the square root of b squared - 4ac divided by 2a is?! Do you really need to know what 2i is? DO YOU NEED TO KNOW HOW TO FACT A FUCKING TRINOMIAL?!
NO, not unless you’re going to be a MATH TEACHER, do you need to know that!
Sometimes, I just really want to cry…. and just cry my eyes out….. and drown in my tears…..
Ah! Teusday = DONE!
May 3rd, 2005Alright! I have a B in Psych!
Without doing SHIT for it. 
HE!
Alright, I know, I promised that Shrill would be updated. Fat fucking chance because I just remembered…. FINALS NEXT WEEK! EEK!
Alright, so I don’t have to go to school again for Teusday (comprehensive final is optional), but I will miuss my pie buddies (John and Mark).
Alright, so, I will go back to updating Shrill as soon as I can get a moment.
Don’t worry, I know what songs I will be adding, it’s just a matter of getting the lyrics and actually updating the content pages to upload them.
NOT COOL.
Especially when you have 2 take homes, one optional, and one you have to study your fucking ass off to pray that you pass and not have to take the fucking thing over again so you can MOVE ON.
Yeah…..
Oh, and I spent the entire day with Autistic kids. FUN! A Barrel of Monkeys I tell ya, A barrel of FUCKING Monkeys.
Well, for a hour an 20 minutes.
Other than that, it was a good time. =D
My Life in a Nutshell…
April 29th, 2005Argh, so tired. I gotta get ready for work in a bit. ARGH. I hate this. Perhaps after Finals are over in two weeks I’ll get up off of my ass and work on the sites.
Been itching for it for a while now.
Took my math test last night, wasn’t as hard as I thought it was going to be. I’m pretty sure I did everything okay. It’s not going to be my lowest grade though. I gotta go in and take my Chapter 4 test so that I can get that zero off of there. She fucking lost my test, and I have to use my one make up to make up that test. That sucks. I have a 53 on there, and I have to use my make up to make up a lost test…. THAT I DIDN’T LOSE.
Somebody shoot me.
Anyways, I’m going to write more later. Gotta go get pretty and such for work. Ugh.
I love to excercise…
April 27th, 2005… I just hate the sweat that comes with it! It’s nasty, stinky, and gross. As I am typing this, I am waiting for my heart rate to go down to normal pre-cigarette rate. Then smoke, and SHOWER.
So yeah, I started excercising on Monday night. Do some strength training, work on the abs, and then walk as fast and as much as I can on the treadmill without passing out or waking the dog. Some days it’s more, some days it’s less depending on my activity every night. I walk every other day, but the stretching, strength, and abs are every night. In 14 days I should see an improvement.
Pre-excercise, I lost a lot of weight. I started working at Dillons and basically hardly ate, but I still gained weight simply because I wasn’t making the right choices and on my days off I just LAZED. I was a freaking couch potato. However, I started realising that my cravings had to be satisfied, and what actually kept me full during the day was actually HEALTHY for me. SHOCKER! Yeah, so I eat a salad for lunch or a couple of chicken tenders when I’m at work. At home, I cook me a healthy choice meal or eat some Special K or a granola bar. At about 2 or 3, I’ll eat a special K bar with some fruit.
I already stopped drinking soda unless that was the only choice. Sometimes at work, I don’t have enough money for water, so I get a soda out of the machine, or just not drink until I can get to the water fountain up front. I swear, instead of all of that soda they have in those machines, they should have some water back there as well. Not every one wants to drink out of the faucet! >.<
I’m basically doing this to get healthier and to lose some fat. Since we might be moving to SD, I wanna have fun at the clubs in nice outfits. Not praying that I dont’ look like an idiot. As much of an idiot you probably look to outsiders of your specific group, you’re even more of a psycho if those in your group say you look like a fool. Don’t want that to happen.
On a side note: I know I haven’t updated Shrill. A lot of things have been going on lately since it’s Crunch Time before the Finals and end of the Spring Semester down at KCKCC. A lot of things need to be done and my procrastinating ass has been putting a lot of it off.
Shrill will be updated next week Monday, and every Monday after that. Blame it on my Psych Report and scrambling to see if I can get some Obs time with Jayson at the HS. Gomen!
World Domination
April 22nd, 2005Hehe. TC is my deadly eastern wench, Lis is both the knife playing girl and the woman with no morals whatsoever, Amerz is my chef, and Kim is my perverted scientific genius. ODD. Know why? Because it’s ACCURATE. Haha!
What a night
April 22nd, 2005Okay, so I’m writing this in the morning due to the fact that I was so exhausted last night to write up a new post. I’m breaking yesterday down into Excitement Phases for easier understanding. ^^
Excitement Phase #1
Three hour shift. ‘Nuff said. ^^
Excitement Phase #2
Came home with salad from work. Ate. Then scrambled to try and get an eight section chapter of Math homework done that was supposed to have been done yesterday. Opps.
Excitement Phase #3
Figured out due to logic that she probably isn’t going to collect the homework anyways. Like on the last three tests. Realised that I had a test that night. Scramble to cram.
Excitement Phase #4
Rocky wakes up and so I take him out to go play with Pepper. Hear from the news that we have a tornado watch/warning going on. A little uneasy, but, the storm was still fifty miles away from us, so no need to panic.
Excitement Phase #5
Storm blows in while I’m out with Rocky. See “Bad Clouds”. If you ever watched the movie Twister, you’ll know what I’m talking out. The spiked clouds? Yeap, TONS. Bad sign, very bad sign. Although, there was a pattern in one of them that looked like an angel’s wing. Very pretty. No camera.
Digression: On How Spiked CLouds And Tornados Form
The clouds become spiked due to the wind rotating the system, forcing the clouds to be pushed up in a “spike” shape. You can see the bottom of the spiked clouds, even if you can’t see them at the edge of the front, just by the bumps on the bottom of the clouds. You’ll know. Smooth as can be. A perfect ovalish bottom. NOT GOOD. The more spiked clouds, THE WORSE THE SYSTEM.
Tornados are formed the exact opposite way that a spiked cloud is formed. You’[ve seen Twister. You get the idea.
Excitement Phase #6
Tornado touches down outside of Weston, Kansas. Holy hell. We aren’t supposed to be worried about that until MAY.
Excitement Phase #7
Storm is over the top of us. Rush outside to pull in remaining flowers so that the hail doesn’t beat the shit out of them. Right when we’re done, the hail falls. BAD JUJU.
Excitement Phase #8
Watch TV, worried about going to class. I don’t want to go. Hail, 75 MPH winds. Samll car. Yeah, ain’t cool.
Excitement Phase #9
Weatherman states “Looks like a funnel is forming right over Fort Leavenworth….” Never got to hear the end of the statement. Sirens start blaring. Grabbed Rocky and ran for the downstairs bathroom. Hole up in there and yell for dad to come down. He wants to see the freakin’ thing before he runs down.
Excitement Phase #10
This goes on for about ten minutes. I’m scared to DEATH. Sirens stop. I immediately go upstairs to call the school and see if classes were going to be canceled. Nope. Crap. I just scared everything that I crammed for out of my brain. Oh well.
Excitement Phase #11
Drive to school. Stopped at a stop light down town. A gust of wind blew past my car and had it SKID over into a parking space. Thank god there was no car there. Please note that I was completely STOPPED. On another note, I had a perfect parrallel park. ^^ The truck in front of me had the front end of his truck pushed out into ONCOMING traffic. NOT COOL. Why wasn’t classes canceled? I don’t know. Decide to turn off radio to listen for another siren, if needed.
Excitement Phase #12
Park in the school parking lot. Turn off head lights. Phone rings. Pick up, but couldn’t hear anything. Tower must’ve been bad. Get out of car. Lock door. Realise that I STILL HAD MY ENGINE ON WITH THE KEYS STILL IN IGNITION. Fuck. Call parents and tell them to come and turn my car off. Go to class.
Excitement Phase #13
Walk into class. Five of us were there. A few more started to trickle in. Worried about test. Realise that, due to the lack of people, no test. Yay! Start going over Chapter 10. Good. I hate Quadratic Equations.
Excitement Phase #14
Whoever was smart to have the Natural Science class next door reconstruct a Tornado Warning System should’ve waited until next week to showcase it. Wasn’t cool that every five minutes we’d hear something akin to a siren. NOT COOL.
Excitement Phase #15
School’s out. Go home.
Excitement Phase #16
Get home, play with Rocky. Eat some chilli. Play .hack and FF Online. Get my ass handed to me. Oh well.
Relaxation Phase #1
BLESSED SLEEP. However, being woken up an hour later due to the boyfriend calling is NOT KOSHER. I let it ring, thinking that it was my mom. After a second time of him calling, I decided to pick up phone.
Relaxation Phase #2
We’re going to KC today after work! Yay!
So, needless to say, I need to go to KC after that shit last night. ^^ NOT COOL. I hate tornados. Even though I know the odds of your house getting reamed by one is like, a million to one, it still scared me when the weatherman had just said that he thought a funnel cloud was being formed over Fort Leavenworth. And then the sirens stared screaming at you. A guy in my class came in still in uniform. He looked like hell. Class was almost over, but came anyways due to the (non) test. Him and some weather guys up at the Tower (Leavenworth has a small municipal airport for those in the military and to launch helis from.) saw the wal cloud and sounded the alarm. Leavenworth County is on one of those systems where if sirens go off in one town, they go off through the whole county. Better to be safe than sorry, I suppose.
I wonder what the pen does when a siren goes off? Do they take the inmates and put them in a shelter? What about those in the hole? Or do they just say “Fuck it” and leave them in the cells? I dunno. I’ll have to ask Dr. Collins on Tuesday if we get her again for Psych.
Anyways, yeah. Last night in sixteen Excitement Phases. God, I hope my dad gets that job in San Diego. >.<
Shrill Updated
April 19th, 20055 New Songs up on Shrill.
Forgot to do it last night. Gomen. ^^
I’ve been playing FFOnline WAAAAAAAAAY too much.
Still haven’t written my report. I think I’ll just skip class tonight, or lie and tell him that I forgot it. I dunno. I have Math homework to do as well. FUCK.
Aiyah, the world is out to get me this semester. WHy, oh god why, did I just not do it when I had the fuckin’ chance? *cries*
ARGH!
April 17th, 2005Stupid, fucking Yagudo Initiate! I was like… thisfuckingclose to killing that sum bitch and it got me first. DAMNIT! There goes some XP.
Anyways, I got it back when I killed it next round. ^^ Go me! *strikes manga pose of victory/macho-ness courtesy of Dee Laytner*
I’m gonna let Jeremy borrow the books so that he can read them. I’m pretty sure he’ll love them.
Anyways, reading the rest of Fake has me retake up thinking about doing my own manga. I was going to do it originally based on a series of short stories I was writing that dealt with Lucifer and some weird Alien shit going on (IE, Angels and “God” were actually a darker extraterrestrial group of beings that use the souls of humans as slaves on their home world)
But now I’m going to change it. I’m going to make it something dealing with technology, fantasy, and bit of industrial edge to it. Almost steampunk in a way, but not really. Gonna call it Technocracy. ^^
I’m going to do the chara sketches here in a few days. If I ever stop playing FF Online. >.< Anyways, you can stop reading right here if you wish, cause I'm going to describe the "main" charas right now.
Name: Randy Hunter
Age: 25
Description: Tall, brown hair/eyes, thin build, "grungy" looking
Place in the Technocracy: Specialises in Computer Manipulation, essentially, using his specially honed skills to make a computer/AI/anything with wires obey his command; called on the street "hacking".
Name: Zan Jungerfelt
Age: 24
Description: Slightly shorter than Randy, blue eyes/hair, thin build, "street" looking
Place in the Technocracy: Doesn't belong to the Technocracy, but to a band of street urchins that specialise in thievery. The main, main chara of the story. Finds out he's part of a Technocratic experiment gone bad.
Name: Lasarus White
Age: 28
Description: Silver hair, with silver eyes. His father was a Darunthel (who are notorious for banging Magicites. >.< Hence wierd hair colour.), his mom a regular citizen who owned a shop. Raised by the Technocratic leader, Zilpan, after his father died when his mother shot him.
Place in the Technocracy: Specialises in Artificial Intelligence Construction. He builds robots for a living. ^^
Name: Shai Daniels
Age: 13
Description: Dark skin, light hair. Mixed race kid. Pretty though.
Place in the Technocracy: None, for she is part of the Magicites. The Magicites are a band of "witches" and "warlocks" (mages, summoners, anything completely human but dealing with magic). She is the Sister Priestess High in the Magicite Colony, basically meaning that she is the High Priestess' younger sister and is in training to take her place when her time is up.
Name: Lorraine Daniels
Age: 21
Description: From their mother's first marriage, she doesn't have the dark skin like Shai does, but does however have light hair (blond), and breautiful crystal blue eyes. Average height.
Place in Technocracy: None, for she is the Magicite High Priestess. Older sister of Shai.
Name: Lorne Tudor
Age: 15
Description: Light skinned, dark hair. Bishie. ^^
Place in Technocracy: None, for he belongs to the opposing Darunthel Clan, which are a bunch of semi-technological/magical clan. Uses both weapons and magic to achieve their goals. Think "Paladin" when you say Darunthel. The Darunthel's are sworn to protect the Magicites and he loves, I MEAN LOVES, Shai and just so happens to be her best friend.
Name: Zilpan Grue
Age: 48
Description: Still very handsome for his age. Think Shinji's father from EVA. >.<
Place in the Technocracy: Specialises in a very rare, and hard to master skill, called AI Wiping. Essentially, you get into the AI/Processor/DA BRAIN of the anything with wires and you fry it’s circuits or you just erase it’s memory. Frying it is tougher to do. Most people within the Technocracy that have this skill (cheah, all, like, FIVE of them) were told when they were young about this rare skill/ability and train for it. THe skill seems to choose the person, instead of the other way around. You have to be genetically predisposed to this skill, like, MUCHO GRANDE predisposed to it. Las’ step-father. Current head of the Technocratic Government.
Hrm, oh yeah, I forgot to mention that I’m going to throw in a gay couple in here. Not giving out answers unless you guess it correctly!
You have the main characters. GUESS!
I speak Dixie?!
April 16th, 2005
Your Linguistic Profile: |
| 50% General American English |
| 25% Dixie |
| 15% Upper Midwestern |
| 5% Midwestern |
| 5% Yankee |
Editor’s Note: I speak DIXIE?! Well, I s’pose it comes from hearing Kristin talk at work all the time. I pick up accents easily. The midwestern stuff comes from, heh, living in KANSAS of all places. Eastern? Now that’s a new one. BUT FRICKIN’ DIXIE?! I have never been to Tennessee or to Kentucky, and I ain’t gonna. FAR too many rednecks for my taste. ^^